which is more worthy?
$59.95 mooks gaudalupe
OR
$109.95 goorin bros zendra
decisions :(
if you're passing through here, please - help me decide by taking a vote.
which is more worthy?
$59.95 mooks gaudalupe
OR
$109.95 goorin bros zendra
which is more worthy?
$59.95 mooks gaudalupe
OR
$109.95 goorin bros zendra
as i speak
people ask me... "how ARE you???"
my answer: B-U-S-Y!!
i'm not kidding!
but now, i feel like i owe a post, and after all, my new camera did arrive the week before last - which i totally neglected to tell you all! but yes, i decided to go with the ixus 100. it's tiny and cute. and takes good enough photos. so score!
i thought i'd post some photos to give a quick recap of what's been happening over the past few weeks... OTHER than uni of couse! =)
last month was mom's birthday. nothing quite as sweet as getting showered with presents throughout the day right? we got up extra extra early (and by we i mean rach and me) at 6am to make her breakfast. we then had flowers and chocolates sent to her office. followed by a homemade signed photo [below] and then.... a laptop! pretty good effort hey. =p
a few days later in april, it was jas's birthday! and because we're all such good friends, we spent the whole of friday "slaving" away, making cupcakes and a cupcake tower.
third birthday for this post goes to janice! happy 21st! but too bad that the clearest photo i have of all us girls has some random guy in it too!
last week we had family come visit from singapore. was pretty awesome. makes me remember how much i love having family around. so anyhow, weirdly enough we didn't actually take any group shots - well, none on my camera anyway! but i did get some pretty funny snaps of my 13 month old niece. she's hilarious! as soon as she gets into a car, she crashes. every single time! it's so awesome. but as it turns out, i'm such a bad auntie... teaching her to drink coke. it's totally in the genes coz she loved it. =p oh and she knows how to suck through a straw - that's pretty awesome for 13 months!
so with the last shot... of course, with the new camera, i just HAD to practice the self takes. and yup... i think i've got them down. =p
but all in all, it's been a busy past few weeks! and sadly, things don't look like they'll be slowing down anytime soon!!!
til next time...
peace!
xoxo. pheebs.
my answer: B-U-S-Y!!
i'm not kidding!
but now, i feel like i owe a post, and after all, my new camera did arrive the week before last - which i totally neglected to tell you all! but yes, i decided to go with the ixus 100. it's tiny and cute. and takes good enough photos. so score!
i thought i'd post some photos to give a quick recap of what's been happening over the past few weeks... OTHER than uni of couse! =)
last month was mom's birthday. nothing quite as sweet as getting showered with presents throughout the day right? we got up extra extra early (and by we i mean rach and me) at 6am to make her breakfast. we then had flowers and chocolates sent to her office. followed by a homemade signed photo [below] and then.... a laptop! pretty good effort hey. =p
a few days later in april, it was jas's birthday! and because we're all such good friends, we spent the whole of friday "slaving" away, making cupcakes and a cupcake tower.
third birthday for this post goes to janice! happy 21st! but too bad that the clearest photo i have of all us girls has some random guy in it too!
last week we had family come visit from singapore. was pretty awesome. makes me remember how much i love having family around. so anyhow, weirdly enough we didn't actually take any group shots - well, none on my camera anyway! but i did get some pretty funny snaps of my 13 month old niece. she's hilarious! as soon as she gets into a car, she crashes. every single time! it's so awesome. but as it turns out, i'm such a bad auntie... teaching her to drink coke. it's totally in the genes coz she loved it. =p oh and she knows how to suck through a straw - that's pretty awesome for 13 months!
so with the last shot... of course, with the new camera, i just HAD to practice the self takes. and yup... i think i've got them down. =p
but all in all, it's been a busy past few weeks! and sadly, things don't look like they'll be slowing down anytime soon!!!
til next time...
peace!
xoxo. pheebs.
goodwill comes in...
note: i exercised goodwill today.
how... you may ask?
simply put, i gave in to my soft spot for fellow "starving" students making their way in the world.
hahaha. okay. so that's probably being slightly melodramatic, but the events of today seemingly highlights one inherent weakness that i can't seem to escape.
my trip to china over the 2008 christmas break reminded me that i really have absolutely zero skills at bargaining. again today, i can say with all confidence that i just don't know how to negotiate! see, i've been trying to sell my piano over the past couple of weeks and after putting an ad up on gumtree, i had quite a few calls. a serious buyer came to see the piano today and after inspecting the piano, we talked price. oh boy was it a bad idea for me to be there alone. lol. people say that you've gotta know the lowest point that you're willing to go to right? check, i did. but as soon as they said that the guy (who was like 17? 18?) was paying for it himself and was a student and only had $X saved up to pay for it and that they just moved into a new house and really couldn't afford much more, i said... okay, no worries. i'll do it for $X+100, even though it was less than what i wanted for it.
*haiz.sigh*
so i know i did a good thing. the guy was clearly a musician (he plays guitar and is learning composition, hence the piano), and i'm pretty sure that it'd go to good use. and hey, at least i sold the thing right? but the principle of the matter is still there: i gave in WAY too early.
ah well, it's a lesson for next time right?
;)
til next time,
x pheebs.
how... you may ask?
simply put, i gave in to my soft spot for fellow "starving" students making their way in the world.
hahaha. okay. so that's probably being slightly melodramatic, but the events of today seemingly highlights one inherent weakness that i can't seem to escape.
my trip to china over the 2008 christmas break reminded me that i really have absolutely zero skills at bargaining. again today, i can say with all confidence that i just don't know how to negotiate! see, i've been trying to sell my piano over the past couple of weeks and after putting an ad up on gumtree, i had quite a few calls. a serious buyer came to see the piano today and after inspecting the piano, we talked price. oh boy was it a bad idea for me to be there alone. lol. people say that you've gotta know the lowest point that you're willing to go to right? check, i did. but as soon as they said that the guy (who was like 17? 18?) was paying for it himself and was a student and only had $X saved up to pay for it and that they just moved into a new house and really couldn't afford much more, i said... okay, no worries. i'll do it for $X+100, even though it was less than what i wanted for it.
*haiz.sigh*
so i know i did a good thing. the guy was clearly a musician (he plays guitar and is learning composition, hence the piano), and i'm pretty sure that it'd go to good use. and hey, at least i sold the thing right? but the principle of the matter is still there: i gave in WAY too early.
ah well, it's a lesson for next time right?
;)
til next time,
x pheebs.
p.s. that was just a test.
okay. so let me just say.... WOW!
it actually worked!
that's soooooooo awesome. so right now it's like 4:34am. and here i am testing out this wicked new "blogging-system" which probably will change my world.
okay, so it probably won't change my world... but man. this is so crazily efficient. i check my email like 20 times a day, so this might just work out dandily! and you probably will be hearing more from me. =D
anyhow, so i figure that it's about time for a quick update as to what i've been up to for the past couple of months...
x. overloading at uni was a really good idea round about 8 weeks ago (or however long it's been since uni started)... but now it's just seeming pretty stressful. most times when i go to uni, i still feel more like a staff member than a student. and i'm not liking that too much. i have the luxury of having my desk look over the main pedestrian crossway on campus and every time i look outside, i see hundreds of students rushing about, carrying laptops, assmably rushing to hand in their assignments... and then there are those who are just chilling out, just walking with friends. when i see all this, i think about how much work has changed my student life. two years ago i was like that and now, i'm at uni four days a week and three of them are spent holed up in an office at a desk in front of a slow computer. isn't that sad?
x. worse, i feel like my social life is inexistent now. but then... i'm pretty sure i felt like this the same time last year. i distinctively remember a conversation that went along the lines of "something's just got to give in my life right now". and then in the end, after months of deliberation, i decided it was serving in church. that, i regret. so now i'm actively serving (not as much as i want to be)... but at least i'm putting it as a priority. my only worry now is how next semester is going to go. i think i have that bad habit of living in the future. some people? living in the past is their thing. that used to be my lifesong, but not anymore! now i'm all about thinking what the next six months are going to be like, or what next year will hold for me.
x. this brings me to say... i've made quite a few decisions about next year actually. i've been forced to really. i know that i can't stay (and don't want to stay) at Curtin. as soon as i'm out of uni (which is most likely to be at the end of next semester), i'm definitely finding a new (and proper) job. not that Curtin hasn't been good to me. it's definitely been good. but i've been applying for jobs and for grad school. depending on how the latter goes, maybe i'll be able to call the eastern states "home"... at least for the next couple of years anyway.
see? there's that future talk again. all this talk has gotten me so serious. but... maybe it's just because it's almost five in the morning. why am i not tired you may ask? maybe it's because i spent all of thursday night "burning the midnight oil" finishing off an assignment that was due on friday. just for the record, that's the first time i've ever done that for a uni assignment. it felt weird. and i definitely don't have a good feeling about how the result is gonna go. but then i guess that's something which makes uni, uni right? so anyhow, i totally slept to catch up for it last night. slept 14 hours. which is something i haven't done in about a year. but it did feel sooooo good. in any case, i ended up waking up at five pm this afternoon, so that's the reason for my five am psychosis. not something i'll work into my weekly routine i don't think.
next thought.
i don't usually like to think of myself as a shopaholic. i like shopping online, but that can probably be attributed for my love of receiving mail. don't you love getting surprizes in the mail? i do!! i gotta say, i was really popular this past week. got more than 10 letters... which okay i admit sounds pretty lame, but some of them held some good news! and who doesn't love good news? so yes. anyhow back to my original thought. my shopping list of desired items has been growing and growing and growing. and now that list contains the likes of:
x. a canon ixus 100 or 110 - i'm still not 100% decided
x. a ghd straigtener - preferably one with the fat plates (as opposed to the usual skinny ones)...
x. a 32GB iPod touch - my 8GB is pathetic and useless.
x. a new clock - random i know, but mine has stopped working and i've constantly been thinking about buying one that actually suits my room decor.
x. a new car (yes, one with 4 doors this time)
x. a new babolat tennis racquet - i already bought the sneakers, so of course there needs to be a matching racquet!
x. hair rebonding - technically this isn't a purchase... but then again, for $120, it technically is.
x. oh and yes while i'm at it, i'll add hair cut too.
well. at this time in the morning, that's all i really can think about. but i'm sure my list actually is a lot longer.
so anyhow. all i meant to say at the beginning of my little "rant", was that this year has been really interesting so far. hrm. or not. it's more like. things this year have been totally routine, but then there's little stuff coming out of nowhere which is making things interesting.
oh and p.s. just for a random thought, i really love the big taboo. i could play that game forever!
so here's me, keeping things happy.
xoxo. pheebs.
it actually worked!
that's soooooooo awesome. so right now it's like 4:34am. and here i am testing out this wicked new "blogging-system" which probably will change my world.
okay, so it probably won't change my world... but man. this is so crazily efficient. i check my email like 20 times a day, so this might just work out dandily! and you probably will be hearing more from me. =D
anyhow, so i figure that it's about time for a quick update as to what i've been up to for the past couple of months...
x. overloading at uni was a really good idea round about 8 weeks ago (or however long it's been since uni started)... but now it's just seeming pretty stressful. most times when i go to uni, i still feel more like a staff member than a student. and i'm not liking that too much. i have the luxury of having my desk look over the main pedestrian crossway on campus and every time i look outside, i see hundreds of students rushing about, carrying laptops, assmably rushing to hand in their assignments... and then there are those who are just chilling out, just walking with friends. when i see all this, i think about how much work has changed my student life. two years ago i was like that and now, i'm at uni four days a week and three of them are spent holed up in an office at a desk in front of a slow computer. isn't that sad?
x. worse, i feel like my social life is inexistent now. but then... i'm pretty sure i felt like this the same time last year. i distinctively remember a conversation that went along the lines of "something's just got to give in my life right now". and then in the end, after months of deliberation, i decided it was serving in church. that, i regret. so now i'm actively serving (not as much as i want to be)... but at least i'm putting it as a priority. my only worry now is how next semester is going to go. i think i have that bad habit of living in the future. some people? living in the past is their thing. that used to be my lifesong, but not anymore! now i'm all about thinking what the next six months are going to be like, or what next year will hold for me.
x. this brings me to say... i've made quite a few decisions about next year actually. i've been forced to really. i know that i can't stay (and don't want to stay) at Curtin. as soon as i'm out of uni (which is most likely to be at the end of next semester), i'm definitely finding a new (and proper) job. not that Curtin hasn't been good to me. it's definitely been good. but i've been applying for jobs and for grad school. depending on how the latter goes, maybe i'll be able to call the eastern states "home"... at least for the next couple of years anyway.
see? there's that future talk again. all this talk has gotten me so serious. but... maybe it's just because it's almost five in the morning. why am i not tired you may ask? maybe it's because i spent all of thursday night "burning the midnight oil" finishing off an assignment that was due on friday. just for the record, that's the first time i've ever done that for a uni assignment. it felt weird. and i definitely don't have a good feeling about how the result is gonna go. but then i guess that's something which makes uni, uni right? so anyhow, i totally slept to catch up for it last night. slept 14 hours. which is something i haven't done in about a year. but it did feel sooooo good. in any case, i ended up waking up at five pm this afternoon, so that's the reason for my five am psychosis. not something i'll work into my weekly routine i don't think.
next thought.
i don't usually like to think of myself as a shopaholic. i like shopping online, but that can probably be attributed for my love of receiving mail. don't you love getting surprizes in the mail? i do!! i gotta say, i was really popular this past week. got more than 10 letters... which okay i admit sounds pretty lame, but some of them held some good news! and who doesn't love good news? so yes. anyhow back to my original thought. my shopping list of desired items has been growing and growing and growing. and now that list contains the likes of:
x. a canon ixus 100 or 110 - i'm still not 100% decided
x. a ghd straigtener - preferably one with the fat plates (as opposed to the usual skinny ones)...
x. a 32GB iPod touch - my 8GB is pathetic and useless.
x. a new clock - random i know, but mine has stopped working and i've constantly been thinking about buying one that actually suits my room decor.
x. a new car (yes, one with 4 doors this time)
x. a new babolat tennis racquet - i already bought the sneakers, so of course there needs to be a matching racquet!
x. hair rebonding - technically this isn't a purchase... but then again, for $120, it technically is.
x. oh and yes while i'm at it, i'll add hair cut too.
well. at this time in the morning, that's all i really can think about. but i'm sure my list actually is a lot longer.
so anyhow. all i meant to say at the beginning of my little "rant", was that this year has been really interesting so far. hrm. or not. it's more like. things this year have been totally routine, but then there's little stuff coming out of nowhere which is making things interesting.
oh and p.s. just for a random thought, i really love the big taboo. i could play that game forever!
so here's me, keeping things happy.
xoxo. pheebs.
so much has changed.
wow. so you can email to your own blog huh?
who came up with that idea? totally awesome.
everytime i hang out with friends or even when i'm walking alone and just thinking of random things, i always have the thought... woah. i should definitely post about ____________. and then by the time i get home, the thought is totally gone and i never remember what it is i wanted to post about!
so wow. if this whole email thing works... maybe i'll even start posting stuff from my iTouch!
technology never seems to amaze me. watching movies about all those totally futuristic things? totally bugs me out. but now i think about it, so long as i don't have some eviil robot taking over my life... technology's pretty cool.
peace out y'all.
xoxo. pheebs.
who came up with that idea? totally awesome.
everytime i hang out with friends or even when i'm walking alone and just thinking of random things, i always have the thought... woah. i should definitely post about ____________. and then by the time i get home, the thought is totally gone and i never remember what it is i wanted to post about!
so wow. if this whole email thing works... maybe i'll even start posting stuff from my iTouch!
technology never seems to amaze me. watching movies about all those totally futuristic things? totally bugs me out. but now i think about it, so long as i don't have some eviil robot taking over my life... technology's pretty cool.
peace out y'all.
xoxo. pheebs.
*at the tip of my fingers*
so i've always known that i'm not exactly the most technically savvy person out there. but it only really just occured to me that not only am i totally under-utilizing my mac, but i just don't know enough about what the internet and technology has to offer!
so check this out. there's a user who has posted up a list of 25 of his top mac applications that he could not live without. of this list of 25, i currently have three installed on my own mac. these are: skype, handbrake and firefox. okay, so two of which are not mac-specific. that makes this even more pathetic to think about.
now going beyond this, the other 22 - i never even heard of! and to make things worse (or embarrassing), questions like "what's a BitTorrent client?" and "how does RSS feeds work?" crossed my mind.
i asked my brother to explain to me how RSS feeds work. his explanation was clear and simple. but somehow, i just can't get it. but. i have dared to be brave and have now downloaded NetNewsWire to dabble in. i will let you know how it goes!
in any case, i'm sure this is going to be interesting. but somehow, i'm still worried. downloading things from the net, whilst illegal, is moreover worrying for me! i just can't do it. i never know what looks like a good file or what files are going to have viruses. i don't know how people do it! it took me ages to get the concept of a torrent and how that whole thing works. somehow, i'd rather PAY for my stuff and do it the "right" way, rather than have to worry about downloading a worm or a trojan or another crazy computer bug.
hah. "computer bug". i guess really am a noob.
=.=
oh. and don't even get me started on the intellectual property argument. i've been thinking WAYYY too much about it the past few days. actually, you know what? i think i'll keep that topic on the table for a another dawning day. =))
so check this out. there's a user who has posted up a list of 25 of his top mac applications that he could not live without. of this list of 25, i currently have three installed on my own mac. these are: skype, handbrake and firefox. okay, so two of which are not mac-specific. that makes this even more pathetic to think about.
now going beyond this, the other 22 - i never even heard of! and to make things worse (or embarrassing), questions like "what's a BitTorrent client?" and "how does RSS feeds work?" crossed my mind.
i asked my brother to explain to me how RSS feeds work. his explanation was clear and simple. but somehow, i just can't get it. but. i have dared to be brave and have now downloaded NetNewsWire to dabble in. i will let you know how it goes!
in any case, i'm sure this is going to be interesting. but somehow, i'm still worried. downloading things from the net, whilst illegal, is moreover worrying for me! i just can't do it. i never know what looks like a good file or what files are going to have viruses. i don't know how people do it! it took me ages to get the concept of a torrent and how that whole thing works. somehow, i'd rather PAY for my stuff and do it the "right" way, rather than have to worry about downloading a worm or a trojan or another crazy computer bug.
hah. "computer bug". i guess really am a noob.
=.=
oh. and don't even get me started on the intellectual property argument. i've been thinking WAYYY too much about it the past few days. actually, you know what? i think i'll keep that topic on the table for a another dawning day. =))
*crap is crap*
usually, i'm the kind that never has nothing to say. i really do always have an opinion. about everything.
but the for the past two weeks (which seems like forever), i've been left surprizingly opinionless.
i'm not entirely sure what's to blame but these days i sit in my classes and i just think. wow. how come everyone knows so much?
how is it that the world's wealth of knowledge seems like it's been transferred to everyone else, except for me?
i feel foreign.
there was a point in time when i first got back from canada/US after a good six months of being abroad. and in class everyone was talking about the recent election and how australia was just about ready to be flushed down the toilet (of course this topic was discussed a lot more eloquently and passionately featuring extremist cases of political "jargon" and other such wisecracks). but for the life of me, even though i had followed the federal election briefly on youtube and news.com.au, i sat there not able to even recall who the new australian prime minister was, let alone being able to discuss new rudd policy directions, budgets, platforms and all of that stuff. shame on me! right?
so now, there are times when i think that i'm totally out of my league. is it my fault that i use common sense as my primary platform of political interpretation? ultimately, i just think that theories should exist to help us make sense of reality. but if a theory doesn't do anything except confuse reality even more, then it really must be a crap theory even if it was theorized by some dead guy who was the founder of whatever institution that was world-renown for watever reason.
honestly. crap is crap. why can't we just leave it at that?
but the for the past two weeks (which seems like forever), i've been left surprizingly opinionless.
i'm not entirely sure what's to blame but these days i sit in my classes and i just think. wow. how come everyone knows so much?
how is it that the world's wealth of knowledge seems like it's been transferred to everyone else, except for me?
i feel foreign.
there was a point in time when i first got back from canada/US after a good six months of being abroad. and in class everyone was talking about the recent election and how australia was just about ready to be flushed down the toilet (of course this topic was discussed a lot more eloquently and passionately featuring extremist cases of political "jargon" and other such wisecracks). but for the life of me, even though i had followed the federal election briefly on youtube and news.com.au, i sat there not able to even recall who the new australian prime minister was, let alone being able to discuss new rudd policy directions, budgets, platforms and all of that stuff. shame on me! right?
so now, there are times when i think that i'm totally out of my league. is it my fault that i use common sense as my primary platform of political interpretation? ultimately, i just think that theories should exist to help us make sense of reality. but if a theory doesn't do anything except confuse reality even more, then it really must be a crap theory even if it was theorized by some dead guy who was the founder of whatever institution that was world-renown for watever reason.
honestly. crap is crap. why can't we just leave it at that?
*i marvel at God*
so today was probably one of my most scary days ever.
it started off with getting out of bed on the wrong side. as crazy as it sounds, my head just didn't feel right. i didn't feel good when i got dressed, i didn't feel good when i got in my car and i definitely didn't feel right when i got on the freeway then realized that i had forgotten my wallet.
things got worse because i was late for work and for a seminar (which was completely boring by the way). and then i was totally unproductive at work. things started to look up over lunch with liz, but then working after lunch was just totally painful.
so at about 4 o'clock, i decided that enough was enough and that it was time to go home. i packed my stuff and was out of the office by 4:30.
bad move.
i was so tired, my eyes kept closing. but then i got on the freeway and was relatively awake. i was only driving for about 5 minutes, past canning bridge on kwinana freeway. i was driving about 15 meters behind a ford falcon wagon pulling a trailer. then it all happened so fast. i saw the ratchet rattling... and before i knew it there was a block of metal the size of a large clay brick flying at me. i tried to take a quick look in my mirrors, but i couldn't swerve because there were cars in both lanes either side of me. so i saw it flying, screamed with my mouth wide open, then it hit. i even think i swallowed glass.
so all i can say now is that God is good. because if that metal brick thing hit any harder, i'm not entirely sure i'd be here right now! see have a look at this: it looks way worse in real life.
so apart from being thankful that i'm still alive, i'm also thankful for friendship. sadly, ronnie and christa and baby jayden went back to new york after three years of stirring ministry here in perth. we're all so sad to see them go but i know that God has big things planned for them.
so here's a happy-sad moment sending them off at the airport:
and finally, there's other types of friendship which i find totally liberating. and i'm definitely thankful for it. the type of friendship where i'm be free to be myself, say what i want to say and be totally carefree.
there's many things that i'm thankful for. and today really just reminded me that you know what? i don't want to die yet. there's so many things that i still would like to have the chance to do.
but honestly, i marvel at God, the things that He creates and the ways that He shows us His love.
it started off with getting out of bed on the wrong side. as crazy as it sounds, my head just didn't feel right. i didn't feel good when i got dressed, i didn't feel good when i got in my car and i definitely didn't feel right when i got on the freeway then realized that i had forgotten my wallet.
things got worse because i was late for work and for a seminar (which was completely boring by the way). and then i was totally unproductive at work. things started to look up over lunch with liz, but then working after lunch was just totally painful.
so at about 4 o'clock, i decided that enough was enough and that it was time to go home. i packed my stuff and was out of the office by 4:30.
bad move.
i was so tired, my eyes kept closing. but then i got on the freeway and was relatively awake. i was only driving for about 5 minutes, past canning bridge on kwinana freeway. i was driving about 15 meters behind a ford falcon wagon pulling a trailer. then it all happened so fast. i saw the ratchet rattling... and before i knew it there was a block of metal the size of a large clay brick flying at me. i tried to take a quick look in my mirrors, but i couldn't swerve because there were cars in both lanes either side of me. so i saw it flying, screamed with my mouth wide open, then it hit. i even think i swallowed glass.
so all i can say now is that God is good. because if that metal brick thing hit any harder, i'm not entirely sure i'd be here right now! see have a look at this: it looks way worse in real life.
so apart from being thankful that i'm still alive, i'm also thankful for friendship. sadly, ronnie and christa and baby jayden went back to new york after three years of stirring ministry here in perth. we're all so sad to see them go but i know that God has big things planned for them.
so here's a happy-sad moment sending them off at the airport:
and finally, there's other types of friendship which i find totally liberating. and i'm definitely thankful for it. the type of friendship where i'm be free to be myself, say what i want to say and be totally carefree.
there's many things that i'm thankful for. and today really just reminded me that you know what? i don't want to die yet. there's so many things that i still would like to have the chance to do.
but honestly, i marvel at God, the things that He creates and the ways that He shows us His love.
*just because*
rule: routine needs to be nipped in the bud.
that's what i keep thinking everytime i get home from work, tired. i just want to sleep. or plonk my butt on the couch. but then, i'll always find something to do. then by the time i have dinner and finish doing whatever i was doing, when i get into bed, it's always 12am, which is pretty late considering my days start at 6:45am. but then, at 12am, i always feel the urge to read. so, i give into the temptation and i whip out a novel to read. then once i start reading, i usually can't stop (especially if it's a robin jones gunn novel). so i read the book from cover to cover. by the time i put the 400+ page book down, it's 3am.
then i sleep.
for 3 hours.
at 6:45am, i'm rudely awakened by the sweet sounds of secondhand serenade, fall for you. which happens to be - my song. at that point in time i snooze my alarm. and do so roughly five to six times every morning. by the time i peel myself out of bed, it's 7:30am. at which point i realize that i'm late. not late by work standards, but late by my standards.
i realize that with a 7.5 hour work day, if i start at 7:30, i'll be done by 3:30. but if i start at 9:00, then i'm there til 5:00. and that's just depressing. not to mention a pain in the butt because of the peak hour traffic both there AND back. so ideally? work should start at 7:30.
but like i said, routine needs to be nipped in the bud.
so let's say thanks because i think a "new" routine is dawning for me this year.
yay to that!
that's what i keep thinking everytime i get home from work, tired. i just want to sleep. or plonk my butt on the couch. but then, i'll always find something to do. then by the time i have dinner and finish doing whatever i was doing, when i get into bed, it's always 12am, which is pretty late considering my days start at 6:45am. but then, at 12am, i always feel the urge to read. so, i give into the temptation and i whip out a novel to read. then once i start reading, i usually can't stop (especially if it's a robin jones gunn novel). so i read the book from cover to cover. by the time i put the 400+ page book down, it's 3am.
then i sleep.
for 3 hours.
at 6:45am, i'm rudely awakened by the sweet sounds of secondhand serenade, fall for you. which happens to be - my song. at that point in time i snooze my alarm. and do so roughly five to six times every morning. by the time i peel myself out of bed, it's 7:30am. at which point i realize that i'm late. not late by work standards, but late by my standards.
i realize that with a 7.5 hour work day, if i start at 7:30, i'll be done by 3:30. but if i start at 9:00, then i'm there til 5:00. and that's just depressing. not to mention a pain in the butt because of the peak hour traffic both there AND back. so ideally? work should start at 7:30.
but like i said, routine needs to be nipped in the bud.
so let's say thanks because i think a "new" routine is dawning for me this year.
yay to that!
*extremities*
a colleague today told me about her 14-year-old brother who brought his 14-year-old girlfriend home for dinner. her mom simply freaked. she just didn't know how to deal with "losing" her baby boy. and while this brother of hers was the kind of boy to not lift a finger around the house (and get away with it), at dinner he got up, cleared his girl's plate and asked her "how did you like it honey?" with a smile.
it's things like this which make me really laugh and wonder.
i laugh because i realize that it's so typical for young ones in love to lash out extremities. some of which may be regretted later on. now this boy carlos is probably one week away from saying "i love you" to this poor girl, and it seems to me that the words "i love you" can be so unbelievably carelessly used these days.
i wonder for this reason: if young people are going to throw around "love" like an everyday word of passion, then what does it mean for people to say it when they really mean it? do we need to come up with a stronger word for love then?
when i was growing up, just saying that you "liked" someone was such a huge deal, complete with the whispers and the giggles. let alone saying that you "like liked" someone. so now, when kids say that they "love" someone, does it carry the same meaning as it used to?
personally, i feel that this is how it should be: once you truly love something or someone, it never goes away. i am a strong believer in eternal love. maybe that's because i'm Christian and i cherish the eternal love that God has for me. but this probably doesn't apply for everyone in this world (although i do hope that one day it does). but perhaps this explains my intolerance for people who say that they "love someone always", but then years down the track it turns out it's not true.
nevertheless, i try to think 10 years or 20 years in the future and i can imagine the linguistically emotional stuntedness of teenagers. if no one says that they "crush" someone or that they "like" someone, and if "love" loses it's meaning... then what's left?
xoxo. pheebs.
it's things like this which make me really laugh and wonder.
i laugh because i realize that it's so typical for young ones in love to lash out extremities. some of which may be regretted later on. now this boy carlos is probably one week away from saying "i love you" to this poor girl, and it seems to me that the words "i love you" can be so unbelievably carelessly used these days.
i wonder for this reason: if young people are going to throw around "love" like an everyday word of passion, then what does it mean for people to say it when they really mean it? do we need to come up with a stronger word for love then?
when i was growing up, just saying that you "liked" someone was such a huge deal, complete with the whispers and the giggles. let alone saying that you "like liked" someone. so now, when kids say that they "love" someone, does it carry the same meaning as it used to?
personally, i feel that this is how it should be: once you truly love something or someone, it never goes away. i am a strong believer in eternal love. maybe that's because i'm Christian and i cherish the eternal love that God has for me. but this probably doesn't apply for everyone in this world (although i do hope that one day it does). but perhaps this explains my intolerance for people who say that they "love someone always", but then years down the track it turns out it's not true.
nevertheless, i try to think 10 years or 20 years in the future and i can imagine the linguistically emotional stuntedness of teenagers. if no one says that they "crush" someone or that they "like" someone, and if "love" loses it's meaning... then what's left?
xoxo. pheebs.
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