i'm sooooooo glad this week is over! but more specifically, i'm so glad tt my history assesment is over!! i memorized waaayyyyy too much! i swear.. i was dreaming it! tt's prob y i woke up so unhappy.. i had "disturbed" sleep... my brain was like.. still stimulated.. so i din sleep so gd.

oh weeell.. as long as it's over! the good thing was.. tt i remembered everything! i even added extra details in.. like quotes from Mein Kampf? geeez.. i dun even noe how i knew those quotes! i onli read them once or twice.. 'n plus my research notes.. maann.. talk abt rushed! i had nearly one WHOLE month to do it! but.. i procrastinated too much [as usual.. keke]. 'n i din start in until last night! lol.. but.. it's all gd.. heheh... =) annywaayyy. i hope for the best...

i got my eng lit assignment bak.. remember the one i did the night b4? hmmm.. i did sorta ok i gez. would've liked to have done a bit better.. but.. still... i gez it just serves me right for doing it all in one night! i promise myself. i will NOT do another assignment the night before. i promise: i'll do everything WITH preparation. lol. hold me to it guys. hold me to it. =p


an image to commemorate last night's hard work. =)
jack-o-jack : here he is maite! haha =p
just for u

i think everyone studies too much.
or maybe i just don't study enuff. lol.
i seem to be doing ok so far tho?
hmmmm.. it's really hard to tell!
i'm still gettin bak up on my feet from failure from last term.
esp intro.

damn.

ok.

so just remembered.
got history thing to do.
in-class essay tm.
was meant to haf done research for it ova holidays.
uh-oh. better start now.
gtg. ciao.

heahehe... everyone's failing my quiz! muahaha.. lol.. nawww.. dun feel bad.. =p i just realized tt most of those questions, no one would be able to answer! hehe.. just truly goes to prove whether that "mr-clever-mediocre-pathetic-guessing" thing was accurate or not.. heahe.. but yeh...
click here to take my quiz!.. =D

how strange.. did u noe i got booted off angelfire for "violated use"? so weird. i din do nething wrong! i'm innocent! i swear it! hahah...

anywho..just uploaded the pics from the anzac day thing... hehe... haf a look!


i look so young!!! sccaarrryyy....

so........! the anzac day parade/march was todae.. suprisingly it wasn't too bad! all except the fact tt my feet've got blisters all over.. worst thing is tt they're on my soles... so.. i can't really walk properly for the time being.. it's sooooo painful! serves me right for wearing those shoes actually.. lol... stoopid me.. i wore clogs.. haha.. they were abt 5 cm high? heels i mean.. lol.. take it from me.. if u're ever in a marching parade, wear flats.. =p

oh yehh.. the other thing.. heahe.. those horses man! they crap eveerrywheere!!! lol... it's sucky coz connor just decided to stop us in the middle of a horse turd field.. lol... the smell was sooooooo bad.. lol.. we were all going to faint. joley was funny tho hehehe... i laugh just thinking about it.. n then tt woman who decided to cross in front of us DURING the parade... lol.. i guess she liked the attention anyway tho.. but.. yeah... those shoes eh.. killed me!!

anyway.. i went to church after the march tho... honestly.. that bunch of kids are so encouraging eh! i mean, they're so "into" it u noe? real encouraging.. it's kewl how they pick up the song so fast.. and they don't complain either.. what's good is that they actually have fun when they're singing.. it's the best feeling eh.. just watching them let alone playing for them .. i really thank the Lord for blessing our church with such kids.. coz they have such potential! our YPG too.. the choir is AWSOME.. like.. it would take my skool choir at least 2 months to learn a song like we did today.. despite how simple the parts were... it really just makes me see 'n appreciate just how God works u noe? it's kinda amazing.. thrilling actually.. it's thrilling to be a part of it all.. =D i guess it's kinda like wat pastor mitch sed a couple of years bak.. u never realise just how powerful God really is until u actually step bak and reflect on everything that's happened... appreciating things is a real good feeling.. it's a warm feeling. makes me smile =)

life. why has it gotta be so complicated? one second.. something is so certain.. but the next.. everything is different. just a look from one person has the ability and potential to change everything which seemed or seems comfortable. but the question is... why does that person have so such power to make me feel the way i do? why do i care so much anyway? does it matter if that person leaves? or stays? should it bother me? it's really scary to think that another person has so much power over how i feel. control. that's wat i need. but how?? how do i get it? confusion.. my life is all about confusion.

maannn... texas chainsaw massacre.. sick sick sick... real disgusting.. i'm starting to see chainsaw's everywhere. not only tt.. but tt freaking face!!! sooooo scaryyyy... i'm freaked. real freaked.

but u noe wat? even tho it was real scary.. it was sort of ok u noe? like.. i hated the idea of everyone dying.. but.. knowing tt it's onli fiction being a movie 'n all.. it was ok.. i dunno.. i suppose i've never really been the type of person to watch scary movies.. hmm... i think i handled it ok.. made me jump 'n stuff.. but.. i think it's ok? altho.. everytime i close my eyes now.. i think of tt monster.. and his chainsaw... i'll always remember tt girl getting hacked up.. 'n those HOOKS! gosh.. the thought is scary eh..

buttttttt....... once again.. just to close off... the quote of the day.. spoken yet again by our very own... "ah lei-lei"... hehe.

"colour does not matter so long as they love each other..."

this time.. what sed is wise.. living in a multi-cultural society kinda helps u see tt too.. everywhere u look... there's mixes.. 'n it's ok u noe? it feels normal.. which is good!

anywayyy. gtg. niteez. =D

man... this html thing is really hard to figure out! frustrating too... oh well.. i've got the time now.. might 'swell do it ey?

buttttttt... quote of the day!!! heahehe.. this is thanx to our "ah-lei-lei".. hehe.. here goes.... :

"age does not matter so long as they love each other..."

heahehe.. once he sed this it went right bak to bite him in the bum... who's susan eyyy lei?? heaheaheahaehe... ok.. i'm being mean now.. hehe.. but.. it is funny! =D

aiyohh... coming up with a new template is troublesome... this one especially.. had to change heapss!! but yeh... this isn't the final outcome. yet. lol...

just got home after a night of "venturing".. lol... if tt's even a word anyway... neh.. tonite was fun! =D i FINALLY found my name on the paving of the bell tower! i swear.. i thought the names were INSIDE it.. lol.. but it's kinda kewl.. at least i found my name.. =p altho.. it's kinda annoying.. our entire skl is under the wrong name! it's under st. mary's anglican girls school!!!! can u believe it?? tt's an INSULT! lol.. not tt i really liked st. marks all tt much.. but still.. to be put under st. mary's is just wrong.. besides, we actually had guyz at our skool.. 'n u wonder y they didn't find it weird wen names like 'curtis' 'n 'craig' 'n 'benjamin' started showing up under the section of an ALL GIRLS skool....

ANYWAY! =D 'taking lives' is a good movie.. it's not really MY kinda movie.. but.. i gez other ppl liked it? i mean.. some parts are sorta scary? it's those parts tt just scares the complete crap out of ya.. lol.. but yeh.. i recommend anyone to watch it ey.. i recommend it just as much as i recommend 'passions'... but! if u do watch it, tell me wat u think.. i wanna noe...anywaayyy.. i must go =) tata!

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stressssssssssssss.

why do i stress about things so easily?

i think everyone wants to kill me bcoz of it.

aiyoh.

esp everyone at jas's party.. lol. i think i drove them crazy. oops. din mean to. but yeh.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY jas!!!! hope u had a great time. =D sorry again tho.. i din mean to..

i am....


The Sonnet
Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

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back from camp..! i should probably add that yes. i did sleep for 20 hours.

butt...!! it was soooooooo good!!! seriously.. the best camp in a long time.. but it went so fast! the week flash by.. felt like a split second eh.. damn.. but honestly.. apart from all the fun.. it was great to go 'n learn so many valuable lessons eh. the best part was that sharing 'n learning wasn't an embarressing thing at all.. truly.. i think we all learnt many aspects of joy.. 'n i think it's something which we all want to learn how to cultivate as a church.. truly.. it's a fantastic feeling. =) it feels great to be a part of a church family where love 'n care is justso highly valued u noe? like.. it feels really comforting.. but better yet, it feels better to be a part of a church who loves the Lord so much. having Pastor Charlie 'n Pastor Mitch come to share with us the word of God in such a way.. there's no way to describe just how good it was. there's so many things which we all took away. i just hope tt this spirit amongst us all won't fade away. i hope we all work our hardest to create and maintain a genuine spirit of joy... CORPORATE joy amongst the whole church. it'd be absolutely fantastic to serve in a church which has utter and complete unity u noe? just imagine the thrill.. the thrill from it is realli exciting u noe?

i personally want to learn how to focus on God's Word.. to meditate on it.. oh! and i learnt a new word! "imbibe".. yup.. i want to be able to imbibe God's Word to the full.. digest it.. and put it to practice.. tt's my goal...

so after a week of fun.. i've come bak to face a week of work.. i'm motivated actually... i'm gonna do better this term.. exams are just 5 weeks away.. so i've gotta start working now.. anyhow.. there are pictures from camp.. i've posted them alreadi.. so check them out ok? oh yeah.. 'n as rach sed on her blogs.. no bad thoughts.. please. lol. =)

hmmm.. my feelings are so mangled these days. i can't seem to be able to differentiate things from things. hmmm. it's like. one moment u feel a certain way, then the next moment u feel something totally different. i wish i was sure of what i was thinking. the things which you love should be obvious to u right? i was always so sure of those kinds of things.. but now... i just can't tell. it's kinda confusing actually.. coz i really don't noe what to do or how to act. maybe this week will help to sort things out.. relaxing 'n stuff. maybe my feelings will become more real. i hope so anyway. gtg. sleep is calling me.

camp camp camp! yay!! i can't wait... it's always good fun.. great learning experience too.. =) i can't wait. wait. i set tt alreadi. ah well.. at least i get my point across.

oooh! clueless was on tonight! heaheh.. makes me think tho eh.. tho it's realli stoopid coz it's a movie and real life isn't wat movies are like. but i sometimes wonder if stuff like tt or feelings like tt can actually happen in real life. it would kinda be cool. ah weel. i gotta live realistically.

bomb threat in skl today! yay! got to miss out on like.. 60 mins of jap! yay! lol.. but damn, i still had to do ma kanji test.. luckily i studied for it.. heck it was the ONLY thing i felt like studying.. lol

but sheesh.. those yr 12's.. seriously.. i mean, they get expelled.. but they gotta come bak 'n trash everything first.. geez. 'n they even leave their freakin' DNA there for da cops to find them with! geeeeezz.. i just find it really stoopid.

oh! another thing. i can't believe it happend eh. ashleigh got hit by a car on friday arvo.. she was getting off the skool bus 'n crossing the scarborough beach road.. she got slammed head-first into the windsheild. she also cut open her entire side.. u could see her ribs.. her broken ribs anyway.. but now she lies in Princess Margeret.. intensive care.. she's still in a coma.. i can't believe something like this could actually happen u noe? it's just not realistic at all. but i just hope 'n pray that she'll be ok. it'd be heartbreaking for the whole school if she passed away. TOUCHWOOD! quick quick quick!! ok.. i take tt back.. what am i talking about????? she's not gonna die! she's gonna be healthy! and strong! and up 'n at it in no time at all.. =D

but i'll pray for her anyway. pray for safety too. if it happened to her, it could happen to anyone.

thanx goodness i'm feeling better. to some extent anyway. i gez there's always more room for things to get better and better. oh well.

yay! last week of skool! i soooooo can't wait, eh... this term went by realli fast tho.. i suppose it's a good thing tho, but exams are coming soon too.. abt 7 weeks from now.. 'n tt's including the holidays.. hmmmm... oh well.

ugh.

being sick is realli crap. crap crap crap. can't breathe properly. 'n i'm always so unhappy! arrghh.. mooodiness. not good. i hate being realli bitchy to everyone. but somehow, i just can't help it. it's really bad.. i'm making the ppl arnd me hate me. coz i have no patience these days. but y can't they just understand? 'n then just NOT piss me off???? GEEZ!

i've got so much anger again. i keep making everyone elses problems my problems, 'n i dun even sort out the problems which i alreadi have! so i've just got problems, more problems.. and oh! MORE problems! all of which i don't noe how to solve. i'm messed up inside. can't see wat's right and wrong. and worse, everything around me is just pissin me off. what should i do??????? i think i'll lose it one of these days.