oh maann... thank God i got through this week eh... although i'm still realli tired...all those tests this week.. i'm just glad it's all in the past... =)

thanks hidi! she rememebered! last week i asked her to congrats to me if i got through the week... she actually did! the first thing on fridae nite she sed tt to me! =) see wat great frenz i haf..!! =D

ahh the under the stars thing.. i hope it takes off eh! hope there's a good turn out... God willing.. people will invite their friends.. i think it's a realli great ministry to let our skl friends noe the kind of ppl tt we are.. show them wat we believe in... i hope tt ppl aren't ashamed to invite their frenz or to let them noe abt the faith tt they/i have..

five letter word. extended last letter:

STRESSSSSS!!!!!!

pretty much summarizes my day..

hmm.. said farewell to chris 'n jim todae... they flew off to s'pore this arvo... kinda hard to believe tt they're gone now u noe? i mean.. chris.. he's backed the ypg for the past couple of years... i gez we got pretty um... used to things being tt way? but... i'm realli glad tt they have this opportunity to go u noe? they'll turn out to be great pastors.. coz they're ppl persons... they noe how to encourage others... =)

but yeah.. the ypg is having an event in a couple of weeks.. we called it "under the stars"..! sounds so gd!! i'm sooo excited ehh... hehe.. it's gonna be a bash =) hopefully, everyone invites their friends.. i hope there's a good turn out.. =)

arrgghhh... how much do i hate skool...

all my subjects seem to haf something wrong with it...

english lit - my teacher is... well.. she dusn't consider us a "priority".. so we neva get ne of our tests/assessments bak.. so i can't do nothing to work on it...
history- my teach is soooooo disorganized! i sometimes wonder if she even knows wat she's teaching us! a diff thing everyday! 'n she neva remembers to photocopy stuff for us.. so i have nothing to work of... pain in the bum realli...
p&l- wat's the chances tt i'd get the same teachers for BOTH p&l 'n history?
intro calc- i suck at math.. need i say more?
chem- wellll.. i've fallen asleep 5 times in the past 3 lessons... teach is sooooo boring! he just stands there and talks... and talks.. and talks.. and talks.. and talks... etc etc. i could go on forever...
jap- again.. my teach.. talks fast.. talks soft... i cannot keep up... i might as well sit there with a sign plastered to my forehead.. "huh?? repeat!!"

but yes.. other than tt! things are fine.. oh.. but then there's all tt stuff with D... haf we sorted things out properly? coz A asked me today... "y r u walking with D?".. 'n the onli answer i could come up with.. which wasn't exactly a lie... was.. "um.. they're a frend?" .. bsides.. it wasn't realli an answer.. it was more or less a question answered with another question.. i dun think A believed me... but then.. dus it realli mata? i dunno.. i can't realli tell anymore...

y can't things go bak to normal? can't lower skool last forever? i hate hate hate hate hate upper skl at this point in time.. shoot me.. please..

but yes.. i finally memorized my memory verse... *yay!*.. spent last nite doing it in bed.. suprizingly wen i got up to go for a shower this morning, i could still recite the whole thing.. hehe...

here it goes... correct me if i'm wrong..

Psalm 119 : 105 - 112

Your Word is a lamp to my feet
And a light to my path/
I have sworn and confirmed
That I will keep Your righteous judgments/
I am afflicted very much
Revive me, O LORD, according to Your Word/
Accept, I pray, the freewill offerings
of my mouth, O Lord,
And teach me Your judgments/
My life is continually in my hand
Yet I do not forget Your law/
The wicked have laid a snare for me
Yet I have not strayed from Your precepts/
Your testimonies I have taken as a heritage forever
For they are the rejoicing of my heart/
I have inclined my heart to perform Your statutes,
Forever to the very end/

next task... Psalm 119 : 33 - 40...

geez.

why do things always have to be so complicated?

maannn... if ppl would just say wat they feel.. would we still have problems?
i can't help but feel tt we're all at fault actually... it's not just D's fault... i mean.. it does take more than one person to start a fight.. right?

but... if we can't talk to her.. or if we can't even express how we feel.. how can we get over our problems? so much bitchin 'n discussion goin on behind otha pplz baks.. no wonder y we're all upset..

i propose another lunchtime like 2dae.. i think we'll sort it out...

i hope anyway.

okokokokokokok... so the guy of the moment...............!!!!!! goes by the name of.. Heinz Winckler...!! (the South African Idol!!)

heaheaheh... ok... weelll... so he can't sing... but... dang he's hot! hahah... =) check it out...

hehehe... this pic deserves posting.. hahaha... stephhh!!!!!

so tired....

but there's still so much on my mind...

wat mel was saying earlier... made me think so much u noe?

the more i say to anyone.. just makes me reflect even more upon myself...

wat do you do wen ur heart and ur head tell u two completely different things?

which do you follow? which can you depend on?

both decisions haf their consequences... people will get hurt in the process..

including myself... although...

the decision still remains mine to make...

tell me... what should i do?

haha... my dear sister... hehehehehehehehehehe.... remind me.. hu was the one hu sed tt blogs were.. i quote.. "for ppl with no lives"... heahe.. join us dear sis.. join us.. =D hehehe...

but! more scarily!! i've actually gotta lead the ypg choir tonite!! ahhhh!!! i'm scared eh.. freaked... i dun think i can lead them... not very well anyway.. i'm like.. waayy more towards the younger ones... i'm like.. the 4th youngest? i dun think i can lead all those pplz hu are older dan me.. they dun listen! 'n i'm not just abt to tell 'em to shuddup.. so all i can do is just stick it out.. but... still... it's realli uncomfortable... wish me luck..