ugh.
being sick is realli crap. crap crap crap. can't breathe properly. 'n i'm always so unhappy! arrghh.. mooodiness. not good. i hate being realli bitchy to everyone. but somehow, i just can't help it. it's really bad.. i'm making the ppl arnd me hate me. coz i have no patience these days. but y can't they just understand? 'n then just NOT piss me off???? GEEZ!
i've got so much anger again. i keep making everyone elses problems my problems, 'n i dun even sort out the problems which i alreadi have! so i've just got problems, more problems.. and oh! MORE problems! all of which i don't noe how to solve. i'm messed up inside. can't see wat's right and wrong. and worse, everything around me is just pissin me off. what should i do??????? i think i'll lose it one of these days.
yup. got my chem test bak. oopz. knew i should've studied more. i promise myself tt i won't get distracted again the night b4. argh. i'll just turn my phone off then. yup. tt's wat i'll do.
state team trials are on sunday.. for debating. i'm down to go for it. but. yeah. i'm not going. they just gonna come watch me at my impromptu debate sometime in may. tho, tt'd mean tt i'd only have a few weeks to get ready for state squad. oh well. i doubt i'd make it anyway. juliet ses just to go for the "experience". maybe i should listen to them. 'n just go anyway. i dunno. i'll think abt it.
state team trials are on sunday.. for debating. i'm down to go for it. but. yeah. i'm not going. they just gonna come watch me at my impromptu debate sometime in may. tho, tt'd mean tt i'd only have a few weeks to get ready for state squad. oh well. i doubt i'd make it anyway. juliet ses just to go for the "experience". maybe i should listen to them. 'n just go anyway. i dunno. i'll think abt it.
i think i failed my chem. and english lit. crap crap crap. should've studied a lot more. arghh... sooo bad!!! this is not good ey. seriously not good. gonna get all depressed soon. not fair! y does everyone else get it so easily? not fair. wish i was good at math 'n science. then life would be easier. so much easier to crap on about some literary thing than it is to do math 'n science. want to quit. arrggghhh...!!!!!!!! so angry now.
oh no! got sooo much to study for eh.. hmmm....i'm too slack.. totally undisciplined too! hmmm.. should realli get to it tho eh... crappy mr. elias.. was sooo lucky.. i just finished copying the pre-lab wen he came round to check tt we had done it for homework.. i din do my p&l homework either. lucky she "trusts" me.. lol.. well tt was a mistake! but not like i'm going to say anything to her.
i sooooo can't wait till holidays eh.. family camp these holidays.. fun fun fun! =D better not put too much expectations on it tho.. might turn out crap.. hehe.. but nah, family camp's are always good. esp if everyone just goes to learn heaps 'n just generally have fun. .
ah well.. gtg.. stack of books waiting for me to hit. catchaz all. =)
i sooooo can't wait till holidays eh.. family camp these holidays.. fun fun fun! =D better not put too much expectations on it tho.. might turn out crap.. hehe.. but nah, family camp's are always good. esp if everyone just goes to learn heaps 'n just generally have fun. .
ah well.. gtg.. stack of books waiting for me to hit. catchaz all. =)
wahhhhh... so much work!! p&l... i should realli haf started earlier eh... took up my whole nite..! so i coulnd't study for chem. i realli need to tho eh. test on tuesday... i'm freaking.. like anything. gonna fail. yet AGAIN. then there's english lit. i noe absolutely NOTHING about henry reed. who wants to noe anyway? some homosexual guy who wrote realli realli gross poetry. sexual connotation here.. sexual connotation there. yup every single word. gross.. i'll leave tt to emma 'n joley to decode. not to mention jas. they're good at tt kinda stuff. u wanna think abt sex? just read movement of bodies by henry reed sick sick sick stuff.
ohhh! but the under the stars thing was soooooooooooooooooooooooo goood!!!! it was awesome!! seriously.! i quote from the bulletin this morning. "if u didn't come.., YOU MISSED OUT!!" ... seriously.. it was a bash. mel, lassie, trish, nadia 'n muhua came... fun fun fun.. even tho they were all mocking the crap out of me.. damn tt photo display! STEPHH!!!! u put those peanut photos on... =( make me cry actually. but yeaahhh.. apart from tt, it was gd! us "quartet" sang... spirit wings.. felt realli good singing eh.. the outdoor atmosphere realli took us off.. was fabulous being up there singing..=))
i realli thank God that it was such a success eh. i can speak for myself wen i say tt much prayer has gone into this. because although we put heaps of time in to prepare, still without God, nothing would have been possible. it's by His grace tt we could have had such an enjoyable time. =) truly. He works wonders in our lives. blesses us in the mose amazing ways. a pity some of us couldn't see this until now. but God. is. great.
ohhh! but the under the stars thing was soooooooooooooooooooooooo goood!!!! it was awesome!! seriously.! i quote from the bulletin this morning. "if u didn't come.., YOU MISSED OUT!!" ... seriously.. it was a bash. mel, lassie, trish, nadia 'n muhua came... fun fun fun.. even tho they were all mocking the crap out of me.. damn tt photo display! STEPHH!!!! u put those peanut photos on... =( make me cry actually. but yeaahhh.. apart from tt, it was gd! us "quartet" sang... spirit wings.. felt realli good singing eh.. the outdoor atmosphere realli took us off.. was fabulous being up there singing..=))
i realli thank God that it was such a success eh. i can speak for myself wen i say tt much prayer has gone into this. because although we put heaps of time in to prepare, still without God, nothing would have been possible. it's by His grace tt we could have had such an enjoyable time. =) truly. He works wonders in our lives. blesses us in the mose amazing ways. a pity some of us couldn't see this until now. but God. is. great.
ok ok. ypg under the stars pics have been added. see the navigation on the right hand side above the chatterbox to find it! =D rivercrusie pics will be up shortly... once alan gives them to me... lol. =p
enjoy. me gotta go! p&l 15% assignment waiting to be done. due tm! haven't started yet. ahhh!! catchaz! =D
enjoy. me gotta go! p&l 15% assignment waiting to be done. due tm! haven't started yet. ahhh!! catchaz! =D
rivacruise was good!! hehehe... all i can say.. "go trish!!!!" hahah.. tt gal was awesome! lol.. had to be there to see it.. =) i'm soooooo tired eh!! my knees are killin' me.. aiyohhh... altho.. i will try 'n put sum photos up.. everyone looked soooo good! except me of course... totally under-confident.. lol...=p but yeah.. ALAN!! gimmie ur camera! i gotta get all those pics.. lol. nadia too... i'll bug u guyz until i get 'em.. hehehe =)
aiyoohhh.. gonna hafta deal with my peer mentor group tm... lol.. most of 'em are okay actually.. but still... they take a lot of time 'n effort. 'n plus i dunno if i'm duin the freakin' debate tm nite.. haven't even started preparing yet. and alex still isn't bak at skool.. so hmmmm... stress stress stress.. plus i realli should be studying for chem.. test nxt week.. and english lit too. gotta memorize stuff bout henry reed. neone got ne good info? gimmie gimmie gimmie! i swear.. can't find nething on the net. oh weeeelll... gtg. catchaz. *wink* =)
aiyoohhh.. gonna hafta deal with my peer mentor group tm... lol.. most of 'em are okay actually.. but still... they take a lot of time 'n effort. 'n plus i dunno if i'm duin the freakin' debate tm nite.. haven't even started preparing yet. and alex still isn't bak at skool.. so hmmmm... stress stress stress.. plus i realli should be studying for chem.. test nxt week.. and english lit too. gotta memorize stuff bout henry reed. neone got ne good info? gimmie gimmie gimmie! i swear.. can't find nething on the net. oh weeeelll... gtg. catchaz. *wink* =)
geez.. y is she so freakin pissed off at me?? wat did i do???????????????????????????
oh gosh.. the worst thing. going to skl then having to face every morning sumone hu realli likes to tokk to u, then someone hu likes tt other someone, hu hates u coz u talk to "their" someone... geeeeeeeeeeezzz..... sooooo troublesome eh. all those 'looks' too... it's sooooo damn unfair... i din even do anything! y kn't i just be frenz with this person without neone saying anything? everytime we get "closer" as frenz, everyone just jumps n 'suspects' stuff n starts sayin all kinds of stoopid stoopid things.... kn't we just be frenz? once again i say.. it's not fair.
aside from tt... everything else is pretty ok.. tho jap is goin pretty bad.. serves me right for not studying properly... i just sat there! couldn't think of anything else to say... "etto.. etto".. lol..
bowling today! yay! hehee....hafn't been bowling since i got bak from s'pore.. should be ok i gez... tho, i'm not realli in much of a bowling mood today... i just feel like sleeping. too tired to do anything actually.
oh well.. gtg... 8 o'clock. gotta leave for band. bubai! =D
*create in me a pure heart, O God
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
do not cast me from Your presence,
or take Your Holy Spirit from me*
psalm 51: 10 - 11
oh gosh.. the worst thing. going to skl then having to face every morning sumone hu realli likes to tokk to u, then someone hu likes tt other someone, hu hates u coz u talk to "their" someone... geeeeeeeeeeezzz..... sooooo troublesome eh. all those 'looks' too... it's sooooo damn unfair... i din even do anything! y kn't i just be frenz with this person without neone saying anything? everytime we get "closer" as frenz, everyone just jumps n 'suspects' stuff n starts sayin all kinds of stoopid stoopid things.... kn't we just be frenz? once again i say.. it's not fair.
aside from tt... everything else is pretty ok.. tho jap is goin pretty bad.. serves me right for not studying properly... i just sat there! couldn't think of anything else to say... "etto.. etto".. lol..
bowling today! yay! hehee....hafn't been bowling since i got bak from s'pore.. should be ok i gez... tho, i'm not realli in much of a bowling mood today... i just feel like sleeping. too tired to do anything actually.
oh well.. gtg... 8 o'clock. gotta leave for band. bubai! =D
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
do not cast me from Your presence,
or take Your Holy Spirit from me*
psalm 51: 10 - 11
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