mann.. i love this poem. i'm starting to think that duin english lit actually has some benefits.. =p

how do i love thee by elizabeth barrett browning.
|How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.|
|I love thee to the depth and breadth and height|
|My sould can reach, when feeling out of sight|
|For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.|
|I love thee to the level of everday's|
|Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.|
|I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;|
|I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.|
|I love thee with the passion put to use|
|In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.|
|I love thee with a love I seemed to lose|
|With my lost saints, --I love thee with the breath,|
|Smiles, tears, of all my life! --and if God choose,|
|I shall but love thee better after death.|

ain't it gd? i can't explain y i like it so much eh. just as soon as we read through it in class.. i just got attached.. lol. =p

annywaayyyy.. bak to studying for lit for now. =) catcha!

at murdoch uni now.... borinnggggg!!! so lucki that i haf the net eh.. haha.. i was going insane.. lol. 'n i wasn't even here for wat.. 10 mins? hahah... hmm.. maybe i should've gone to that shannon noll concert today eh.. after all, they WERE freebies.. hehehe... but nahhh.. i'd only go to listen to 'learn to fly' and 'what about me' anyway... as soon as he'd sung those song, i'd been outta theere!! but the bad thing is tt he prob would've sung them last... so.. yeah.. but nahh.. ypg was good none-the-less... we've got a new committee.. a 'protempt'? i think tt was the word used... but yeah.. it's good now.. seems that the ypg has a direction now.. it's good so now we can look into the future with more assertiveness.. =)

anywayyy.. i got my new phone! hah.. i'm still figuring it out tho... not got all the functions fully figured yet.. lol.. it never fails to amaze me. lol.. =p but yeah.. i'm just glad that i have a phone now that doesn't LAG. tt's y the 8210 was fuulllyyyy peeing me off. lol. it had like.. a 3 second lag? fully gets into the way wen u're trying sms. but yeah. the 3200 buttons sorta get on my nerves. hmm.. i should only hafta wait till feb next year. tt doesn't seem like a whole long way away now tho. only wat.. 5-6 months left? oooh! gosh i feel stoopid. i just counted the months... and i sed.. "september....april..." hahahaha.. doh! silly me.. haha.. i should get some sleep. or some food anyway. lol... gonna go. i'll prob end up posting agen. seeing that i'm so bored. but yeah. i'll try not to.. haha. =p

finally.. week over. it's been a looonnggg weeek.

i'm so glad that i got my english lit assessment / presentation is over.. good thing mrs. reece made me go first actually.. then at least i don't have drag it out over the weekend.. so now the only concern is that in-class on tuesday...

gtg. ypg. catchaz.

aiyohhh...! chem test tm morning.. i'm soooooo dead! so what am i doing on the net now?? i have NO idea! i really should be studying.. but i'm so hungry that everytime i sit down at my desk, my mind starts drifting from the details of molar heat of fusions to FOOD!!!

it's terrible.. really.. it is.. and then on friday, i've got this tutorial to present to my lit class.. and its shocking coz i haven't even begun to get everything in order yet.. uh-oh. i'm dead. but u noe.. i really shouldn't be complaining.. there are pplz hu are far far far worse off than me.. luckily i dun have english comparability, nor gnt epw... nor physics.. soo.. i'm preeety lucky.. but oh! i do have that history doc study.. but tt's been pretty easy.. hmm.. wonder how i'll do in that.

anyway! i'm off now! can just SMELLL that curry! hehe.. :D cyer!

p.s mel! stop being mean! =p

wheeww!!!! this week is finally over! u noe.. i've gotta say... this week has been one of the most emotionally roller-coast-ering weeks of my entire almost-16-years-old life. honestly.. an emotional rollercoaster it was!

baptism and re-affirmation.. my absolute worst fear came true eh. being told that i couldn't be re-affirmed just completely shattered my heart. after pastor charlie told me, i couldn't do anything. at first i thought he was joking. but.. he wasn't. he was absolutely dead serious. 30 days too young..! during the meeting.. i was fighting soooooo hard to keep bak the tears.. i couldn't talk eh.. and pastor kept probing me to say stuff.. lol.. like how i felt on the matter.. but honestly.. i couldn't. it just hurt me too much to say anything. honestly, i felt like i was being left behind. it meant so much to me to be re-affirmed with the whole group. but yeah.. getting home that night.. crying crying crying.. i dun think i've ever cried so much in one night b4! it was really a let out of all my emotions.. i never actually knew that i felt so strongly about being re-affirmed.. when my worst fear came true, abt not being able to be re-affirmed.. i gez it just hit the trigger to everything else. but yeah..

now!! gotta concentrate on the happy HAPPY things! hehe... so after a few days.. wen i actually worked up the courage to be completely honest abt things with pastor.. i spoke to him... and he spoke to the session.. they found a loophole in the constitution... so they let me be re-affirmed!! such a joy.. really.. but u noe.. the true spark of happiness and joy came when mich said, well.. offered really.. to wait with me if i still wasn't allowed to be re-affirmed.. i was so touched! so.. mich.. thank u so much.. u made me cry.. but.. with tears of JOY! (and u noe me... that usually doesn't happen.. so.. heheh...it means something!!) heheh. =D

i'm really touched to have such good frenz eh.. i just look arnd.. and everyone arnd me is so loving! and caring! and just.. so... great!.. lol.. ok.. my use of adjectives is preety sucky.. hehe.. but yehhh.. i gez u get the point.. =p

anyhu.. i'm really glad that this week happened.. the anniversary went by like a blink of an eye.. all that preparation was worth it tho.. all that frustration.. and everything.. turned out to be a complete success!! =D so now, the prep is on for father's day.. haha.. should be fun. lol. =p

then.. nadz b'day the nxt day.. hehe.. it was good nadz!! trust me! hehehe.. everyone got to meet new ppl.. and.. "expand their networks!" heheh... as a very wise young lady told us.. hehe.. how true tho eh... at 16, we're not meant to be lookin for wateva older ppl are meant to be lookin for.. we should be lookin to meet new pplz.. and to get to know more ppl from a wider... crowd? yehh.. so.. i gez it's good... ok.. now i'm officially babbling.. i should stop b4 i write something that could incriminate me of something totally embarressing... n now that's the LAST thing i need. lol.. more things for ppl like mel to mock me bout.. chehhh...

i'm off now! heh.. catchaaa. =D

weeelll.... the night is officially over! and now i'm breaking into the ranks of morning.. but.. i just wanted to post these pictures.. to commemorate the evening.. heheh.. =D all in all, it was a wikid night... we sang well.. had fun.. and yeh. i'll remember it for sure. =D i've added all the pics into a photobook.. but here's some of the highlights.. heh. =D oh yeah. one last thing. GO TRIPOD! heheh. =D



2.6.6 plus hid! hehehe...


the 4 of us... me, rach, steph & mich...



the kids choir!


the quartet! mich, me, cheng & john...during my solo... =p


cheng, lei & john... a.k.a tripod - singin it up!


finally.. me, trish and nads! =D

oh yehhh.. for a larger preview.. just click on the pic.. =)
g'nite all. =D time for my feet to rest. hehe.

AHAHAHAHAHA sorry this is too cool. ^_^ this template has a butt in it!!! sorry pheebs...will fix tomorrow hehehe.

trish email me at kitty_diva@hotmail.com please don't take the failure of this particular template as an indication of my skills...it would help if you tell me what kinda blog template you're looking for! all i got from mel was ... anything...all i got from phoebe was...anything but not too kiddy. GIMME SOME FREAKING BOUNDARIES PEOPLE OR YOU'RE GONNA END UP WITH ASSES ON YOUR PAGE!!!

xx sam

well it's me, the great samerino. ^_^ thanks for the confidence by the way phoebe, it's always appreciated...and seeing as i'm doing this gratis i don't think it was very nice. you'll pay. one day i'll beat you in history...AGAIN.

how does it look people? i asked phoebe today how she felt about the colours being black background with a bright text colour (ORANGE) and she said anything...so here we are. and she told me just before that anything goes but "as long as it's not too..."kiddy"..." yeah right phoebe. do i do kiddy? hahahaha mel shhhh...don't remember the pink one...give me feedback. i also have a dark one with a anime girl as a cocooned butterfly, one with dark red and an anime type woman who's like...a deity of some sort i think...mythical of course. but i can do non anime ones! ask ask ask...i just have a fetish for anime. asiany goodness...hahaha.

i'm taking those things that people do...oh, commissions! so anyone that sees my work here, or on mels' page can ask me to do their blogs. i don't make these myself, i just get them and make them look cool...and i think my time spent online will be justified by the pretty journals that will be appearing haha. i have nothing better to do, ladies and jellyspoons...ask me. please.

later
xx sam

ok.. this is the last post b4 sam takes over and "re-dos" my template.. lol..

so.. if it sux the next time u look at it, blame it on her. =p

but on a happier note, thanx sam! *wiNkz* (this is assuming that it doesn't suck ok... =p)

hmmm... things really suck when everything gets confusing... it's even weirder when the goal far ahead of you is really clear.. and u noe wat u want.. and u noe what u hafta do in order to achieve that goal.. but it's the little things.. the things relavent to how things are presently which really muck things all up... just trying to get my head round everything is confusing me... let alone actually figuring out wat to do...

the thought of just giving up is becoming more and more prevalent... i just wanna give up.. 'n stop everything from happening...

oopz.. gotta go. laterz.