wheeww!!!! this week is finally over! u noe.. i've gotta say... this week has been one of the most emotionally roller-coast-ering weeks of my entire almost-16-years-old life. honestly.. an emotional rollercoaster it was!

baptism and re-affirmation.. my absolute worst fear came true eh. being told that i couldn't be re-affirmed just completely shattered my heart. after pastor charlie told me, i couldn't do anything. at first i thought he was joking. but.. he wasn't. he was absolutely dead serious. 30 days too young..! during the meeting.. i was fighting soooooo hard to keep bak the tears.. i couldn't talk eh.. and pastor kept probing me to say stuff.. lol.. like how i felt on the matter.. but honestly.. i couldn't. it just hurt me too much to say anything. honestly, i felt like i was being left behind. it meant so much to me to be re-affirmed with the whole group. but yeah.. getting home that night.. crying crying crying.. i dun think i've ever cried so much in one night b4! it was really a let out of all my emotions.. i never actually knew that i felt so strongly about being re-affirmed.. when my worst fear came true, abt not being able to be re-affirmed.. i gez it just hit the trigger to everything else. but yeah..

now!! gotta concentrate on the happy HAPPY things! hehe... so after a few days.. wen i actually worked up the courage to be completely honest abt things with pastor.. i spoke to him... and he spoke to the session.. they found a loophole in the constitution... so they let me be re-affirmed!! such a joy.. really.. but u noe.. the true spark of happiness and joy came when mich said, well.. offered really.. to wait with me if i still wasn't allowed to be re-affirmed.. i was so touched! so.. mich.. thank u so much.. u made me cry.. but.. with tears of JOY! (and u noe me... that usually doesn't happen.. so.. heheh...it means something!!) heheh. =D

i'm really touched to have such good frenz eh.. i just look arnd.. and everyone arnd me is so loving! and caring! and just.. so... great!.. lol.. ok.. my use of adjectives is preety sucky.. hehe.. but yehhh.. i gez u get the point.. =p

anyhu.. i'm really glad that this week happened.. the anniversary went by like a blink of an eye.. all that preparation was worth it tho.. all that frustration.. and everything.. turned out to be a complete success!! =D so now, the prep is on for father's day.. haha.. should be fun. lol. =p

then.. nadz b'day the nxt day.. hehe.. it was good nadz!! trust me! hehehe.. everyone got to meet new ppl.. and.. "expand their networks!" heheh... as a very wise young lady told us.. hehe.. how true tho eh... at 16, we're not meant to be lookin for wateva older ppl are meant to be lookin for.. we should be lookin to meet new pplz.. and to get to know more ppl from a wider... crowd? yehh.. so.. i gez it's good... ok.. now i'm officially babbling.. i should stop b4 i write something that could incriminate me of something totally embarressing... n now that's the LAST thing i need. lol.. more things for ppl like mel to mock me bout.. chehhh...

i'm off now! heh.. catchaaa. =D