i wanna go home.... ='( i dunno y eh....i used to feel realli realli comfortable 'n stuff in s'pore... but now its all weird! even with my cuzin's 'n stuff... i just feel as if i can't act normally....i feel weird... totally out of place...it's strange... 'n it's making life shit as anything eh... as if it hurts to live... i wish everything would just go back to being normal. or at least to a way where i can feel comfortable to a certain extent? coz now... life's just crap.

hmmm... u noe.. being in a different country just makes me appreciate wat i have bak home. its the stuff tt u take for granted... not like the weather... or the clean air... but like...my frenz... 'n just the way tt i am able to live in general... things in s'pore are so different tt i can actually see how valuable things really are. i can't seem to comprehend y i would eva take for granted the great frenz tt i'm surrounded by... its weird tt onli leaving wat u've been so comfortable with until u can see what it realli is...

i think i'm gonna head into a state of depression soon... slowly...i can feel my self becoming more and more...just...i dunno... there's a word for it...but i dunno how to explain.... i think i'll explode sooner or later... but better sooner than later i think... then at least it'll be over and dun with... argh....this is crap. life is crap. hope it blows over.