life. why has it gotta be so complicated? one second.. something is so certain.. but the next.. everything is different. just a look from one person has the ability and potential to change everything which seemed or seems comfortable. but the question is... why does that person have so such power to make me feel the way i do? why do i care so much anyway? does it matter if that person leaves? or stays? should it bother me? it's really scary to think that another person has so much power over how i feel. control. that's wat i need. but how?? how do i get it? confusion.. my life is all about confusion.