okkayyyyy.... yessss! it's a new look!! not quite the one that i had in mind.. but! i really really really needed to change the template.. lol. =p way too sick of the old one!

anywayy.. was studying.. then decided tt i'd had enuff of the blogger-crisis thingo.. haaah. so i changed it.. under 15 mins! hahaha. wooooot! =D record time i must say. annyywaayyyyy... things have been.. hectic. there's heaps of stuff to be doing. but i'm like.. NOT doing it. lol. =p i think i've found wat the problem is tho.. i'm not nervous abt all those assessments.. nor am i just being lazy (well.. not COMPLETELY anyway! =p).. i think i'm scared!! i dunno y either.. it's not like they're big big BIG assessments.. they're just like those update ones u noe? but.. i'm freaked about them all! it's soooooo bad!! i keep telling myself that in 3 weeks, i'll be free for more than 2 months.. but it really doesn't help my state of mind. i'm sooooo close to just losing it ey. i can feel it in my skin. i just wannt jump up and down and pull all of my hair out screaming. i feel frustrated. angry. peed off. just all over... grrrrrrr!!! there's not a proper word to describe the frustration though. it's MORE than frustration. but LESS than anger-ative suicidal. it's weird. stupid at the same time.

nyyeehhhh.. so i'll keep my focus on going to s'pore. it could be a good thing anyway. keep me "looking forward"... hahah. but nyeeehhhhhhhhhhhh.. we'll see how things go. see if i survive tm. after period 2 tm. i think i'll feel a tad bit better. =D

faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light - helen keller