hmmm.. so i've got all these thoughts going thru my head atm.. i keep thinking abt the future... and wat i'm gonna do for the rest of my life. i noe it's a real. weird? thing to be thinkin bout? like.. coz it's so 'far' away and everything. but i dunno. that's just where my mind wonders to nowadays. even wen i'm meant to be concentrating on something - like the movie tonight? i just keep thinkin about it. i just keep thinking whether or not there's one suitable path of life that i'm meant to take. something which God intends for me to take.. and that i'll truly be happy with as well. but u noe wat? there's these bks that i'm reading at the moment. the Christy Miller Series. i've been reading them since i was like.. 10? but anyway. i was a koorong [a christian bkshop] on friday arvo, and i came across the final 3 bkz of the series.. where the main character christy has finally grown up - in college and ready to get married.. but annnnywayyyyyy.. the 3 bks are really gd.. coz they really show how we've got to trust God in every aspect of our lives. like how life is this really really big picture. and He actually noes everything that's gonna happen. so i suppose, the biggest lesson i've caught onto in these bks is that we can't be in control of everything.. we're not supposed to be either. wen i say that, i mean that we're meant to let God be in control of everything. i suppose that's one of the exact things that i'm guilty of. i have a lack of trust in God. i think i don't trust enough that things will turn out right if i just let go and let things be. i don't feel safe enough doing that. but i guess that's where true faith comes in.
annnywayy. after all this faith-speak, i come bak to the thought of the future. and how i just can't see wat the future holds. i gez that just scares me a bit. i'm not sure. hmmm. anyway. so wat i really was gonnna say. the lastest thought i've had is abt wat i'm gonna do in uni. uni is only nxt yr! so! i'm thinkin bout early childhood education... i gez, i just thought abt how much i like kids.. and i'd love to work with them u noe? i think i kn see myself being happy doing that. but thenn... i dunno there are other parts to it which make me quite unsure. somehow i just don't see myself studying education in uni. it just doesn't seem quite right. but then neither does law. mehhhhhhh. i dunno! the more i think, the more confused i get. nyehhhhhhh....
trish just came up with a great idea! hehe. one which just might be the solution to my confusion... she suggested that i right down all of those ambitions which i think i want to do.. or can see myself doing.. then as time goes by, cross out the ones which i'm not so keen on.. that way i'll be narrowing down my options.. and that's gd.. coz i've definately got wayyyyyy too many atm! heheh.. thanx twish! =D
ok. i'm gonna go now. lol. will post later!! =D
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