soooooo. chillin now. lol. the list of things to do is getting shorter.. but it's still pretty long at the same time.
u noe. sunday's is meant to be a "reliever". like. i'm normally really relaxed after church. but somehow, these past two weeks have been really stressful. i think i just need to chill. relax. not be so frantic so much. life was meant to be fun.. right? or at least.. not as stressful as how i feel.. or how i make it. like today... playing the piano for service.. stressing abt how the kid's order of worship/bulletin didn't get printed.. then photocopying.. starting to sort out the choir files. teaching the kids... then actually choir-ing. wahhhh. stressfullll. it's really bad bcoz i kn't sit there and have things musically.. not right? and like. not do anything abt it. i resent it sooooooo much. i hate the fact that i always have the urge to HAVE to say something.. if the rhythms wrong.. or the notes.. or wateva.. it's crap. i wish i could just go by with out saying anything. i might try that actually. suppress it. perhaps i'll feel less.. stressed. or wateva i'm feeling at the moment. i hate being disrespectful. and i think that's how it comes across. so i apolagize deeply. i meant no offence watsoever.
anyway. so went shopping today.. was sorta unproductive.. but it was okay i suppose. going shopping on wed, thurs and friday! hehehe. and going to watch mr. & mrs. smith on thursday nite. =) heeh. and ball shopping on friday. buttttt. got a discrete and jap oral exam to get through first. which reminds me. i gotta finish writing my jap speech.. STILL haven't done it. and i want to revise for discrete tm so i kn get 100% in the exam. it's soooo do-able hey. want to. reaaally want to.
okay. gonnnna go now. =) see yaaaa.
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