oh. please just stop.

i keep having the recurring thought about how fast this year seems to be going by. and need i say more? it's already april!

now really, how did we manage that?

i can't believe that i've been back home for like 3 months now. it's absolutely amazing! that's like, half of the time that i was away for! and being in toronto seemed to go all that much slower. on second thought, i'm not even sure if that makes sense. what i mean to say though, is that time over there went by a lot slower because of the intensive productivity that we "achieved"... or just because of all of the things that we did! but now? it seems that everyday my life goes by, it's same old same old. i'm definately back into my "routine", but i'm pretty much on the outside when it comes to the decision of whether i like my life right now.

mum's are so wise. do you know what mine said? she told me that i'll be working for the rest of my life, and that life as a student really only does come once - so i should enjoy it! how's that for words of wisdom? she also told me that making money now isn't a priority, so i really shouldn't be bothered with working so many hours.

yet, i can't drag myself away. i know i work too much. my family knows i work too much. God knows that i work too much. yup. everyone knows it. yet, despite that... i still can't seem to stop! it seems as if i'm addicted to waking up at 6:30, showering and then fighting through peak-hour traffic, only to slave away in the office for 8 hours. i do this 4 days of the 5 workings days. how lovely.

isn't life just peachy?

i've gotta say though, and liz can testify to this... i was horribly moody today. from the moment i woke up, i knew it was a bad day. i was furthermore confirmed in this belief when i drove to uni only to find that all the staff bays were taken. in fact, i actually saw a 4 cars in a row who were STUDENTS... in the STAFF carpark! needless to say, i was pretty cheesed off. so i went to scout student bays to no avail, and eventually, after cruising around wasting petrol for about 40 mins, i had to park in the visitors carpark. which means, my parking fees this year is now totalled to $204.00. gay huh. i can't imagine paying $4.00 just for 2 hours. it's stupid. i didn't pay for a staff permit for nothing!!

okay. now i'm just venting. see what this reflection gets me?

more frustration.
more annoyance.
and just more... well.... just angry!

=(

no i'm not an angry person. i've never been an angry person. gah. i just need to sleep. i need the world to stop spinning, people to stop calling me, work to stop piling up, and lecturers to stop giving me freaking exams on my weekends!

that's what i need.

and the chances of wish fulfilment?

0.

zero.

nada.

zilch.


~ oh the blissfulness of being a student...

~ how precious...


NOT.