*oh how things change*

generally speaking, when people welcome in a new year, it begins with resolutions, promises and others of the like. but one thing which i only noticed this year, is that the new year also brings dramatic change. i feel as if people around me are living towards new aspirations and are somewhat conscious of the fact that they really want something different from the year 2009.

work is definitely like this.

i kinda expected that it was going to be a bit weird coming back to my job after leaving for a couple of weeks. obviously, someone had to do my job when i was away, but i didn't quite expect to feel so... trodden over. it's not so much that i feel replaceable because to be honest, i'm actually quite relieved that i am so replaceable right now! but when i look ahead at the year 2009, i'm scared. scared is all i feel. overloading at uni and dealing with work and other commitments, while fulfilling my promise to myself that i WILL have a social life this year - it's all quite worrying. last year i kept getting frustrated because i was never able to go where i wanted to, despite the fact that transportation and finances were no object. time seems to run away from me. but i know for a fact that i don't want to be one of those 80 year olds sitting in a rocking chair while looking back on life realizing that i spent my 20s working hard at things that didn't really matter.

friends matter.
faith matters.
even uni matters.

when it comes to compromise. i suck. i really really do suck. i'll be the first to admit that decision making has never been my forte. put me in a petrol kiosk with 25 different kinds of beverages? chances are, i'll walk out with five, just because i couldn't decide. and that's after 20 minutes of serious deliberation.

but the problem is that life isn't like the petrol kiosk refrigerators. it's actually a lot harder. and so this is where i'm lacking. the only problem now is that i know where my head is at, but the action part of the equation lags quite far behind.

well, now it's time for a p.s.
honesty is a virtue that is often ignored. but i personally think that the virtue most forgotten these days is patience.

patience in answers.
patience in prayers.
patience in wisdom.
patience in friendship.
patience in knowing what's right even though everything else tells you it's wrong.


xoxo. pheebs.